“…The spell (mental illness)
kept a finger on my lips
for years after. When I try
to measure that time like a
mother checking her child’s
progress with a yard stick, there
are gaps in development,
as if two pickets on a fence
were kicked in and the air between
became vague memory. ”
(Continued on my website)
when you’re pale.
No sunlight can be
in the Bloody Benders
or hikers in Soviet Union
Thank you for the invitation.
But I must be leaving early.
They noticed the cracks
in my head the second I entered
the room. And you can do better
than a burden.
Once, my father won the rat race
and then it wasn’t worth it.
Cause life was going the way he planned
until the man hit him on a dead man’s
curve. He broke his legs, but lost his
mind the most (though, denied it).
Suddenly there wasn’t
a plan, just a lot of twists like the country
roads ahead. From his wheelchair, he threw
of revenge to anyone close by.
Life needed to be punished, after all.
I was close by.
And I’ve been weird like this ever since.
Thoughts before I speak
are hands rearranging letters on the Scrabble
board until it finds coherence.
I open my mouth and all that spills is
static, voices under water,
an awkward pose,
unkempt hair and dirt under my fingernails.
But sometimes it lands on paper,
in high definition.
as if you’re reading through a picture window
or most likely, someone else.
Preventing a car accident is easy:
Be sure to wipe your hands on your jeans
before touching the steering wheel.
Set the radio’s volume to an even number.
Turn on the CD player. Keep
on repeat while on the bridge or interstate.
Count to ten.
(Repeat when necessary).
Keep gum in the cup holder for good luck
but don’t touch it until you’re safe at home again.
-None of this makes sense.
-No. But it’s been working. So just in case….